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  The X-Files™

  I Want to Believe

  Max Allan Collins

  Based on the screenplay by Frank Spotnitz and Chris Carter

  For my wife and son,

  who spent so many Sunday evenings

  with me, watching The X-Files

  Scientists were rated as great heretics by the church, but they were truly religious men because of their faith in the orderliness of the universe.

  Albert Einstein

  Contents

  Epigraph

  Chapter 1

  The day had been so overcast, Monica Bannan barely noticed…

  Chapter 2

  The doctors seated at the conference table had their attention…

  Chapter 3

  From the helicopter, the abstraction that was his nation’s capital…

  Chapter 4

  Dana Scully, in the cold concrete corridor of what ASAC…

  Chapter 5

  Dana Scully, white lab coat over her brown blouse and…

  Chapter 6

  Despite the darkness of the night—or rather of the early…

  Chapter 7

  In that no-man’s-land after midnight and before dawn, the country…

  Chapter 8

  The giant block of ice held assorted body parts, as…

  Chapter 9

  In the operating room, Dana Scully—in surgical cap and gown—was…

  Chapter 10

  When Dana Scully, her red hair damp from a shower,…

  Chapter 11

  His breath steaming in the chill, Fox Mulder climbed out…

  Chapter 12

  While Fox Mulder and ASAC Whitney were pursuing their suspect,…

  Chapter 13

  Lost in a longing that was almost physically painful, Dana…

  Chapter 14

  Despite the darkness of early evening, Tom Gibbons, proprietor of…

  Chapter 15

  A tow truck was winching the battered white Taurus up…

  Chapter 16

  The newspaper headline reminded Fox Mulder of the kind of…

  The Truth Is in Here

  About the Author

  Praise

  Others Books by Max Allan Collins

  Copyright

  About the Publisher

  Chapter 1

  Rural Virginia

  January 6

  The day had been so overcast, Monica Bannan barely noticed dusk settling in, the last cold light of day doing its best to hold on to the somber colors of winter, and failing. Skeletal trees and occasional farm buildings were black shapes against a darkening sky, but Monica found them comforting, soothing, not forbidding, much less foreboding. Only when her car’s headlights came on automatically did she realize that darkness was upon her.

  The heater purred and she was almost too warm in the hooded sweatshirt, down vest, and sweats. Her curly blonde hair, however, combed back, damp (from her swim on the way home from work), would freeze out in that chill wind. But it would be only a few steps from her carport to her warm house. She could risk it.

  With no makeup on, and her prominent nose, Monica looked almost plain, though she really was quite attractive—in her youth she had even done some fashion modeling. Now, approaching thirty, she was one of that army of professional women who worked for the government in nearby Washington, D.C.

  She’d had a typically long, not particularly memorable day, and looked forward to a quiet evening in front of her TV with the fireplace going behind her and Ranger, her German shepherd-ish mutt, curled up beside her on the couch, big head in her lap.

  The little housing development loomed ahead, dark boxy shapes in the descending night. The snow had stopped mid-afternoon but the roads were still slick enough, with patches of black ice, for her to take the turn into the settlement of small houses with extra caution.

  Soon, however, without incident, she was pulling into the driveway and up into the carport beside her single-story clapboard house, its lights mostly off. Had her eyes been on her rearview mirror, she would have seen the bulky figure passing behind her, blushed red in her brake lights, ever so briefly.

  But she did not.

  She switched off the ignition, her medical ID bracelet swinging to strike the dashboard lightly, and she was about to go in—her things in the trunk could wait—when she heard Ranger going nuts in there.

  By all rights she should have kept the animal outside—hadn’t she gone to the trouble of putting in a doghouse in back? But with this cold, this awful goddamn arctic cold, how could she do such a thing to the only male in her life right now?

  So Ranger was in there, yapping his head off, but it took a moment for her to realize that this was not a display of welcome-home affection, rather a vicious growl-tinged round of barking of a sort usually reserved only for cats and squirrels.

  Monica opened her car door and stepped out, yelling, “Ranger! Be a good boy! Settle down in there! It’s just me…”

  But she had not even started toward the nearby house when she saw something that contradicted her: footsteps in the snow.

  Monica froze in place, almost literally, her damp hair already stiffening despite the hood; she was still under the roof of the carport, if barely, her mind working to overcome the fear rushing through her bloodstream.

  If Ranger was barking, these footprints were fresh…

  She took a step back, Ranger’s frantic muffled barking still in her ears, her eyes searching the back wall near where she stood, where an array of gardening tools nestled, waiting for better weather. Perhaps one of these could provide the weapon she needed to help her make that short, endless trip to the house; she had a gun in there, after all.

  That was when the figure in heavy winter gear, thermal jacket bulging like steroid-enhanced muscles, appeared before her, breath pluming, the big man’s face barely visible in the near darkness, though she somehow made out rugged angles and light-color eyes colder than the wind.

  He saw her.

  He moved toward her.

  He reached for her.

  She grabbed up the gardening tool with its soil-ripping attachment and, as if she were carving her way through dense jungle, drew it back and came down with it, swinging it, slashing.

  His gloved hands came up, reflexively, but the sharp prongs caught a wrist, tearing flesh, and leaving red jagged trails across one cheek as well.

  Ranger’s barking seemed to pick up as Monica spent half a second marking her path to the house, but the next half second took that possibility away, as another intruder stepped out of the dark to block her.

  This second big bulky figure in winter gear had long, dark, greasy hair and an angular, unforgiving face from which breath emerged like smoke.

  Rasputin, she thought.

  The gardening tool, with its long handle, was too big and awkward to run with—a part of her brain chastised herself for not grabbing something smaller—and she could do nothing else except toss the thing toward the first intruder. The second one had his hands on her, grasping at her, but she was already running, taking off toward the woods way at the rear of the row of houses.

  Once in the trees she could circle around and get help from a neighbor; but first she needed to get away from these hulking attackers, put some space between her and them…

  She was in good shape, and she was slender and lithely muscular and she could make it. She could make it.

  Only they were as fast as they were big, and she could hear their footsteps behind her, crunching snow and ice and the twigs and leaves beneath, and their heavy but not labored breathing made a disturbing percussive counterpoint to her own fear-tinged, quicker intakes of breath, cold steam stream
ing from her lips.

  Words from the Frost poem tumbled in her brain in a refrain of quiet hysteria: Woods are lovely dark and deep…miles to go…promises to keep…

  And they were on her.

  She heard Ranger barking, barking, so very far away, but he could do no more than she could about these men who were blotting out what little light remained.

  As they overcame the struggling young woman, her two arms no match for their four, Monica Bannan had no idea that the medical ID bracelet on her wrist held a special significance to these men…

  …just as these men did not know they were making a mistake in choosing this particular victim, whatever her qualifications might be.

  Because these inhabitants of a night just arrived did not know they had selected, for their malign purposes, an FBI agent.

  Rural Virginia

  January 9

  The FBI search team left their black SUVs along the roadside and headed inland. The white stuff was deep enough to have men and dogs thrashing at it, and sun reflecting off the unending white landscape meant most of these searchers chose to wear sunglasses. A wide line moved across the designated area, heading toward woods on the horizon, and every man and woman, including Assistant Special Agent in Charge Dakota Whitney, wore a black jacket with FBI in prominent yellow.

  With one exception.

  One man wore a gray jacket and gray slacks. Underdressed for this harsh weather, the tall man in gray, his hair a wild nest of gray and black, his pale oblong face touched with the gray of a goatee, pleasant features clenched with concern, tromped out ahead of the law enforcement team. The government searchers, including the dogs, were following this single civilian.

  “Give him room!” Whitney told her colleagues, even though a part of her wondered why. She had to be mad to take such a desperate action. But her fellow agent Monica Bannan was missing. And action, desperate or not, needed to be taken. They had tried everything else, every recommended procedure plus a few that were not on the books.

  But nothing they had tried was more off the books than this.

  Tall, slender but formidable, her long dark hair tucked under the hood of her FBI parka, the blue-eyed beauty who was ASAC Dakota Whitney had not risen to her position by playing it safe. At thirty-six, she was known as smart and tough and willing to take risks and even cut procedural corners if a case called for it. And Whitney would do whatever it took to find her colleague, her friend…

  Right now her eyes, and her hopes, were pinned on that unsteady human scarecrow trudging through the snow.

  Wheeling unsteadily, almost as if intoxicated, his dark eyes filled with nervous intent, their civilian point man paused to call to the FBI searchers: “It’s here…”

  And he was on the move again.

  So was the FBI.

  The wind was howling now, a high-pitched quality to it, as if the sky were laughing at their efforts. The sky had a point, Whitney knew, but she was not laughing, nor smiling, her gaze fixed upon the tall man’s every step, steps at once certain and uncertain, as this wild man seemed to know exactly where he was going, if he didn’t go down on his ass first.

  Up ahead, he turned, as if on strings managed by an insistent puppeteer, and seemed about to fall, and perhaps make a snow angel; instead he broke into a run, slowed but not stopped by the drifts he traversed.

  Whitney and her team swept hard after him, though as many eyes were on the ASAC as on the man they followed.

  She called, “Let him go—let him go. Just stay with him.”

  And the wild-haired man in the gray jacket was running hard in the deep snow now, his breathing labored, his steps difficult but unceasing. This was a man with a mission, a man possessed…

  And suddenly their unlikely leader fell on his hands and knees, as if he’d collapsed; but he hadn’t. Like a miner who’d found gold, he cried out, “Here! Here!”

  “Go!” Whitney cried. “Go!”

  “Here! Here!”

  In seconds the FBI agents, with Whitney at the fore, surrounded the wild-haired man, who might have been sunk in the snow, praying.

  But he wasn’t. Not right now, anyway.

  He was digging, with his gloved hands, scooping away white with ever-increasing urgency and speed.

  Whitney leaned in, half disgusted with herself for taking this shit seriously, half hopeful that their unlikely guide might have actually led them somewhere.

  To something.

  And then the white gave way to a grayness that might have been dirty snow but wasn’t: this gray had once been pink, and was of a texture quite unlike the white around it.

  Whitney said, “Stop! I’ll take it from here.”

  But her own gloved digging was hardly any more scientific than the wild-haired man’s, and he was still digging, too. They had both seen the same thing, human flesh, grimly discolored, and the sick feeling in the pit of Whitney’s stomach was soon replaced by relief, and then confusion.

  Their guide had led them to something human, all right: a severed arm.

  And, yes, Whitney was relieved that this was a man’s arm, not a woman’s, that this detached limb could not, did not, belong to Special Agent Monica Bannan.

  But to Monica’s disappearance had been added a second mystery: What man had this arm belonged to?

  And why did it have a jagged cut along its wrist?

  Chapter 2

  Our Lady of Sorrows Hospital

  Richmond, Virginia

  January 9

  The doctors seated at the conference table had their attention on another medical professional, a cool-eyed, self-confident African-American woman in white. This distinguished-looking, authoritative figure sat not at the head of the table, but rather spoke to them from a flat-screen monitor on the wall.

  “I’ve gone over the charts you sent,” the doctor on the satellite feed told them, “and consulted another pediatric neurologist who works with me here. And I must say we’re alarmed by two things.”

  Dr. Dana Scully said, “The deficiency in lipid metabolism and the severely diminished enzyme output.”

  All eyes, including those of the disembodied head on the video screen, went to the striking red-haired woman who’d spoken so matter-of-factly. With her long Titian tresses touching the shoulders of the white smock, Dana Scully had the lovely features of a Gibson Girl circa the start of the twentieth century; but here in the first decade of the twenty-first century, this petite, shapely woman of forty or so was a respected medical doctor. Her blue-green eyes appraised the monitor with seemingly cool detachment.

  “Right,” the on-screen doctor said. “That’s exactly right.”

  “Both indicate lysosomal storage illness.”

  “They do.” The doctor seemed slightly taken aback, her thunder stolen. “You’re the boy’s primary physician, Dr., uh—”

  “Scully. Dana Scully.”

  “Dr. Scully, yes. And you tested the lysosome functions?”

  “I think you have all my results there. Should be complete.”

  The doctor on the flat screen began shuffling through her paperwork. Had the woman not given the material proper attention? Scully wondered.

  “My fear,” Scully said, her voice even, allowing no irritation with this high-paid consultant to show through, “is that it’s a type two degenerative brain disease…like Sandhoff disease.”

  Though Scully need not refer to it, all this information was at her fingertips, within a notebook on the inside cover of which she’d taped a photograph of her patient, young Christian Fearon, so that whenever she had to glance at the cold, hard medical facts, she would first see the six-year-old’s upbeat, smiling face. The photo was signed: For Dr. Scully. Love, Christian.

  “I’m concerned,” Scully said, “that my patient’s enzymes aren’t clearing lipids from his brain, causing atrophy, and—”

  “If you suspect Sandhoff disease,” the head on the screen cut in, “I would test the boy’s levels of hexosaminidase…”

  �
�I’ve done that, of course. What I’m really looking for, Doctor, is a course of treatment.”

  “There is no course of treatment for Sandhoff disease.”

  The reply, from the doctor on satellite, had been abrupt, even cold. And this was not the response Scully had hoped for, from so highly regarded a consultant. For a moment her professional facade dropped, and the caring woman showed through.

  Not that the head on the screen felt any empathy, only adding a prickly, “But if there were a treatment, Dr. Scully, I’m quite sure you’d tell me.”

  That was uncalled for, though Scully made no response. Such small concerns as reminding their electronic guest that a consultation of this kind should include common courtesy—and that any clash of egos was inappropriate—had vanished within Scully. She felt as though she’d been struck a blow to the belly, as if all the air in her, like her hopes, had gone whooshing out.

  The eyes of her colleagues were on her. These men and women knew Scully as a scientifically minded, coolly objective professional, and the humanity she’d betrayed, the emotions beneath the normally self-composed surface, surprised them.

  But no face betrayed that surprise more obviously than that of Father Ybarra, the priest who was the venerable hospital’s top administrator.

  She managed to thank the on-screen doctor for sharing her expertise, gathered the notebook, and got up from the table.